Most of this post was written in my head at 3 in the morning because wheeee! Insomnia! I’m hoping to get on a regular sleep schedule soon because everyone tells me to stock up on it now.
I can hardly believe 2020 is upon us. If you’re like me, you get pensive this time of year (really when am I not though?). But there’s just something about the cold months of winter that gets me all up in my head. Anyone else? I thought the other day about how I have this weird thing with double entendres, words that have more than one meaning, and how maybe I could choose a word that is somewhat open for interpretation. Side bar—one of my favorite uses of a double entendre came from a Tori Amos song that I heard for the first time in high school when Andy first exposed me to her musical genius. I listened to Little Earthquakes and Under the Pink so many times, I’m fairly certain I burned a hole in both of those cds. One of my all-time favorite:
China decorates our table, funny how the cracks don’t seem to show / You’re right next to me, but I need an airplane
and we never can agree on where to go
Beautiful, isn’t it? She goes on to talk about how this person–the love of her life–has built a Great Wall around him.
Wow, I’m totally off track here.
I’ve thought long and hard (that’s what she said) about my word of the year. In part because 2020 will be a monumental year for me—for us—and our growing family. But also because maybe more than ever, it’s a year of great change and endless possibility. As terrified as I am (first-time parent jitters coupled with everyday anxiety are quite a combo!), I am fully embracing and super duper excited for this next stage in life.
My word of the year is inspired in part by these two quotes:
“The river is constantly turning and bending and you never know where it’s going to go and where you’ll wind up. Following the bend in the river and staying on your own path means that you are on the right track.
Don’t let anyone deter you from that.”–Eartha Kitt
“Notice that the stiffest tree is most easily cracked, while the bamboo or willow survives by bending with the wind.”
And so, my word of 2020 is BEND.
This year, I will bend to whatever challenges lie ahead. I will follow the bend in the road, but more importantly, I will trust my instincts when it comes to being a first-time mom. And I will bend in meditation and stretches, because my mind and body need it now more than ever.
Check out some of my other Word of the Year posts below!