As exciting as this journey to home ownership has been, I’ve been feeling all kinds of emotions these past few weeks. I realized just recently that these feelings need to be validated because life happens at a dizzying pace and sometimes we have to take a moment to breathe it all in.
I made a trek back to the old hood last week to pick up some odds and ends. Returning to my old address in Montclair brought up a lot of feelings I didn’t expect—mostly Sadness and Nostalgia mixed with Regret and Impatience. The nonstop rain echoed my mood and made it nearly impossible to get out and meet my new neighbors. Had I made a big mistake? Would I enjoy this area as much as I loved my old stomping grounds? Where WAS everyone?
I’m not sure how much my emotions were guided by my general anxiety and how much was just the result of a major life upheaval (that’s normal, right?), but I’m beginning to settle in. This weekend the sun came out, our furniture was delivered, we welcomed our families, I visited the lake, and met my first neighbor. Baby steps. I never thought I would be the one experiencing a hard time with change, but it’s okay to mourn the passing of one phase to welcome the next.
Have you experienced this previously? Do I just need to find my local Target and nail salon and veggie restaurant?! Lol, as always, advice is appreciated.
Happy Monday, my sweet friends. May you all have a beautiful week ahead!