Anticipation sets my world in a tailspin. About 90% of the time I struggle with anxiety about what is yet to come. If you’re neurotic and also partially Jewish like I am, you’ll discover that this is perhaps the worst kind of anxiety to have because you are in a perpetual state of worry about the future—whether it’s something about to transpire in the next five minutes or in the next five years. The timeframe is irrelevant because ball of wire and neuroses, that’s why.
I didn’t want to start off my monthly goals diving into the history of my anxiety, but here we are and I’m glad that’s out of the way, because I’m FREAKING OUT.
Why?
Because I have a birthday tomorrow and it’s the last one in my 30s (gulp) and also we still don’t have a house and someone reminded me the other day that I’m not getting any younger and that my eggs are dying (maybe she didn’t exactly phrase it that way, but that’s what I heard).
Anyway. March moved both at the speed of lighting and at a turtle’s pace, but it’s a new month and a clean slate. Here are the goals I promised to accomplish in March. Let’s see how I did!
- read two books –no. I’m not really proud of this one, because I lost interest in a book and didn’t abandon it when I should have but I did finish one so there’s that
- send pitches to two brands –yikes, also a no. I have a course on pitching to brands I’d like to finish in April and will dive back in next month
- put aside $400 for the house fund –only put $300 towards house fund, but did manage to pay off a chunk of my credit card debt
- toss away stuff we won’t need in the end (phish reference!) –yes, and also managed to start reading The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up, which is inspiring me to clean, sort, organize, and declutter
- attend the gym two days a week –oy… fat no on this one
- plan a getaway, even if only for a weekend –Bryan and I have discussed it, but nothing is on the agenda just yet. House hunting has been eating up all of our extra time, sadly
- stay present – YES. Often
- remind myself often that everything’s gonna be alright –YES and I needed to do that
Well, that was pretty lousy, lol.
April will be busy with a concert, goat yoga, my first work trip, networking, learning, and (of course) more house hunting, but here are some goals I’d like to hit this month:
- to never see a fresh coat of snow again (ha!)
- finish course on pitching to brands and practice what I learned
- read two books
- do things that spark joy
- eat better, live better, feel better
Want to join in? Leave your goals below!
You are going to be doing goat yoga???I have seen that before and I’m so jealous! Give the goat a big hug for me! Man I wish I could never see another coat of snow either. That is not to be here in MN though! Yes to things that bring joy, I’m with you on that as well. Love you lady!
Goat yoga?! How fun! And YAY for concerts, I have a few coming up next week that I’m super excited about as well. Sorry that’s a big no on your first goal for this month haha! Happy early birthday!
What was the book that you didn’t abandon but should have?? I have a hard time abandoning books, but I am getting better at it, because nobody ain’t got time for that!
We have snow in the forecast this week. Ugh. I totally understand the anxiety, but I love the reminders you’re giving yourself. And being present is something I need to work on more. Can’t wait to hear about the goats!
Oh, I understand feeling anxiety about things that haven’t happened. That’s usually what gets me and it’s rough. I hope you have a really great April though and get to read some awesome books and live healthy and just have fun! I really am planning on joining a gym this month and my goal is twice a week so hopefully I can get that going. My sister said she’d join me with, so that’s always a good push.
-Lauren
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I can definitely imagine that house hunting would add some extra stress to life! Hope you guys find just the right one! Oh–happy birthday! Enjoy the rest of what the 30s have to offer! 🙂
I hope you have a wonderful birthday!
This -> “March moved both at the speed of lighting and at a turtle’s pace”
Happy Birthday Charlotte!
I’m going to be 53 this year so…aging never bothered me but now it feels like I’m hurtling in the other direction lol
Karen @ For What It’s Worth
Pretty sure my area is going to get snow tomorrow so I can’t add that one to my list! haha! But I have to say that I LOVE that one of your goals is to do things that spark joy! That’s so beautiful!
Charlotte, you never fail to inspire me. Your goals are always a reminder to me of what I need to do. As you know, I don’t typically share goals on my blog (probably out of fear of failure), so when I read yours, I’m like “Oh, ya. Me, too!”
Try to enjoy the house hunting as a process rather than an end goal. I know that sounds trite. Hope you don’t hate me for saying that. Good luck with your brand pitches and work goals, too.
Wishing you a SUPER BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I’m so glad I visited so I could wish you a happy day! Keep smiling, and I’m hoping you have an even better month in April!!
Awesome Phish reference!
Happiest of birthdays!
March sorta sucked for everyone I know. Let’s count on you, April! Coming for you!
Hope you had an amazing birthday!
Great goals for this month “do things that spark joy” is a wonderful goal – just go for it!
Glad that you ticked off your ‘stay present’ goal. This is something I really need to work on – it is so important!
I totally get it. I get anxiety about things to come all the time, and as much as I try to just “go with the flow” I always come back to those worries. It may be true that you didn’t accomplish everything you wanted to in March, but look at the things you DID do–being present and telling yourself that everything is going to be okay are two important ones, and not always easy to do! Good luck in April! I’m hoping not to see any snow either!
Eat better, live better, feel better. I love that. I too feel like March was lightning fast but slooooooow as fk at times.
I know it’s super super hard not to let what others say get to you, but only you are living your life. There are no prescribed timelines to everything in life, you’ll get there eventually with the house. I, too, get depressed about aging because it means so many things, that time is slipping, or my mother is getting older, will we ever move into a house? Have complete and total financial freedom? I used to be such a control freak and a worrier and I still am, but I’ve learned to not not stress AS much about the things I can’t control. Sometimes you just need to throw your shit out into the universe and have faith. <3 Good luck with your goals for April sweetheart. Love you. xoxo