On Saturday night Bryan and I had a date night in town which included a delicious dinner at Mundo Vegan (seriously one of the best meals I’ve had in a long time) and a movie I can’t stop thinking about. Wish I Was Here with Zach Braff and Kate Hudson explored many themes, including (most poignantly) the relationships we have with our family members and how beautifully flawed they are.
At the age of 35, Aidan (played by Braff) finds himself at a crossroads when he learns that his father’s cancer has returned. The movie was heavy and I found myself sniffling long after it had ended. But I loved every minute–the Californian backdrop and problems of a real marriage; the complications that finances and children throw into the picture. Religion vs. Faith. Fantasy vs. Reality.
“Things left unsaid” is a common thread in the film which naturally made me think of the relationship I have with my own parents. My mother has tried unsuccessfully to discuss some grave realities with me, and as someone more focused on the present, I find it difficult to think about the uncertainty of our collective futures.
And really, who wants to walk into this conversation?
For the past few days I’ve been thinking of the many years I sat anticipating each birthday, as though a fresh start would give my life a deeper meaning. And how wasteful that was, now that I can look back from my own 35-year-old crossroad.
I thought today I’d write a list of random thoughts and things that give my life meaning (in no particular order).
- I’ve realized I’m infinitely happier with a dog than I am without.
- A night with girlfriends and a bottle of white wine is favorable to a crowded bar filled with strangers and acquaintances.
- I’d rather walk than sit.
- I hope never to lose my hearing because I love having a soundtrack in life.
- I will start saving now to surprise my mother with a trip to Vegas for her 70th birthday next year.
- I’m THISCLOSE to getting into crow pose. What it’s taught me? Fear is the only thing that sets me back in life.
- I need to take more vacations by myself. Perhaps to an ashram.
- This path that I’m currently on has a lot of potholes, detours, and u-turns. It is not direct. It is not easy. But when I think about the many years spent in a cubicle breathing in recycled air and hearing the word “streamline” over and over, I know that I have chosen the right destiny.
- Project semi-colon tattoo may be in effect shortly.
Have you seen Wish I Was Here? What were your thoughts, and what are you grateful for today?