The year started off without much of a bang and yet I’m feeling an immense change. I decided not to make any resolutions for 2013 but I feel like a woman transformed already. Subconsciously I have been working on myself from within and I’m remarkably pleased with the mini non goals I have set. If I made any resolutions this year, they consisted of doing things to make me feel better about myself and to finally stop taking life so seriously. There is no greater sound than that of uncontrollable laughter; no greater feeling than the trail of happy tears along a face wrinkled by years of experience. I want my year to be filled with lots of happy moments, good friends, and loud, obnoxious, belly laughs. Seems obtainable, right?
The other day, I redeemed a Groupon for a salon in Marlboro, NJ, about an hour away from Hoboken. On a sunshine filled Saturday, Bryan and I took a day trip, listening to Mumford and Sons in the car as the scenery floated by along the turnpike. A cut, color, and blowout later (all for just 30 beans!), I felt like a new person. I am now a (bottle) redhead again.
Last night I reconnected with old friends from college. The times are few and far between that we are able to see each other: one is expecting his second child this summer, the other his first and balancing a busy lawyer’s schedule. Swapping memories and laughing at stories of the way we were was something I think we all needed.
Tonight I’m doing something else I’ve neglected for a very long time: I’m returning to therapy. I can’t remember the last time I went but it was definitely before the hurricane. There was a time when missing so much time in the therapist’s office would cause meltdowns of epic proportions. I no longer feel that way. I am simply excited to return and perhaps break through some of the roadblocks I still see in my path. I don’t feel a sense of urgency to get there; I am finally surrendering to the idea that each step is a vital part of the journey. I will get there when I get there.
For someone who hasn’t made a single resolution this new year, I am feeling very motivated to start this year off on the best note possible. There is a sense of calm and kindness that hasn’t existed in my life in many moons. For this, I am immensely proud.
I have alluded to a bit of news in one of my previous posts that I am immensely excited to share with you all. Hint: it involves fur and a hurricane. Does that help?
How are you all, my sweet ones? Did you make any resolutions this year?