I have a case of the sads since returning from Vegas. If I had just one more day to soak up some Vitamin D, bust a move on the dance floor, and make out with another cute boy then maybe I would feel satisfied and complete. Three days was just not enough (though, to be honest, I may have died had I stayed longer). And I shouldn’t complain; I’m glad I was able to get away from the rat race for just a little bit.
My carriage turned into a pumpkin the minute I returned from Sin City and stood in the freezing cold airport terminal making a checklist of things I needed to do now that I was back on the east coast. Las Vegas was a land of excess where I indulged in some unhealthy foods, far too many cigarettes, and a sea of tequila and rum. Back from the adult playground, I have chucked the cigs and unhealthy travel habits and I’m left to deal with the reality I left behind.
I find myself thinking about my career and how I’m not entirely happy rewriting words for the publishing company I work for. I think about my renewed passion for writing and how I stopped for ten long years because I was terrified that I would fail at the one thing I loved more than anything.
My life has changed dramatically since I first hit “publish” in October of 2009. Ironically enough, I picked up writing again at a time when I barely recognized myself in hopes that it would comfort me. As I sat for weeks in a wine-induced coma feeling sorry for myself, refusing to pick up the phone or see my sweet, concerned friends, I turned to blogging and found immense solace in stringing together the words that often choked me. I taught myself all I could about WordPress, made new friends in blog land, read countless books on writing and blogging… and I started to think of myself as a writer again.
So I’m making a promise to a now 32-year-old Charlotte. I bounced back because of pen and paper (or fingertips and keyboard) and I think I owe it to myself to pursue this thing pretty seriously. With a bit of trepidation, I think I am finally ready for change.
I have no idea what I’m doing or how to do this exactly, but I refuse to let life pass me by as I once did. If there’s anything I’ve learned in the last year and a half, it’s that anything is possible when I let my inner Aries take the lead.
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I’m dedicating this post to a dear friend of mine who is experiencing a world of heartache this week. I’d like to ask you all to send out some good vibes and positive thinking her way and maybe we can brighten her spirits for just a few tender moments. I love you, girl.
Things always seem to take a different perspective once you let loose a little bit, doesn’t it?
Yay for change, wishing you lots of good luck. And sending your friend lots of good vibes.
Sending your friend much positive energy and good thoughts.
I think this vow to change will be a great thing for you. You’re an excellent writer and the fact that you love to do it is icing on the cake. You talent and passion will assure you success!
It’s funny, I’ve been feeling the same way since we’ve returned from Vegas. Something about all the fun I had made me realize that I need some more pleasure in my normal life. I think I need to make some changes too, but I don’t yet know what they should be.
Love you girl! xoxo
I have total faith in you. So get to writing. 😉
And positive vibes to your friend in need.
Sending the positivity
I will gladly read whatever you write and I’m for more of it! 🙂
Workin on a post about this past weekend and my first act of Pumaism for you…
oh lots of good vibes and love to your friend this week! and i greatly support you in your writing journey. i think you are a marvelous writer and i have no doubt that you will make your beautiful mark on the world in the best way. have you read “the artist’s way?” it’s an amazing book all about moving forward with those life-long dreams, but it does it in a way that is honest and confronts the fear that often blocks people from writing/art/music/performing/everything! i highly recommend checking it out if you haven’t yet. it sounds like it would be a perfect means of support right now.
I really enjoyed reading this post – you definitely have a way with words. sending love to your friend and hoping things turn around! xoxoxo
You, my dear, are a treasure who has and should continue to share all of your experiences, thoughts, insights, and bravery with the world. You have been blessed with a skill to be able to do this, and as we both know, it is a skill that not everyone possesses, despite common misconception. You have overcome some trememdous obstacles, conquered fears, and pushed yourself beyond limits you once thought impossible, and the fact that you’ve done so with your words is to be commended and celebrated. You expressed something key in this post: while you have backing from your friends, family, readers, etc., you have something even more valuable: backing from YOURSELF.
My love and respect for you has grown exponentially since you began this metamorphosis, and you have been MY insipiration to write my own blog. PLEASE continue to bestow that gift on the rest of the world. XOXOXOX
I’m excited for you to see where this takes you!
What a beautiful post, and it touches a nerve with me because I have that same desire right now. I wish you the BEST of luck, although I know if you have your mind set on it, you’ll make it happen! (As I hope is the same for me one day!)
So glad you stopped by today! 🙂
Returning from vacation does always have that weird sort of feeling. I am so glad that you are grabbing your pen. It’s a wonderful thing. You are such a great writer.
I will send lots of healing love vibes your friend’s way.
I hope you have a lovely week!
Good for you! I’m so happy for you that you are following your dreams, heart and gut. Good luck to getting started on your new journey.
I always got the blues when returning from Vegas FYI. It’s like be awakened from a really great dream. Glad you have found some renewed confidence are ready to make some changes. Sounds like you need it. The weather is turning and should give you a little boost. Hope your friend is okay!!
I’m glad you’re finding yourself!
Congrats on quitting the cigs! I’m sending some big English good vibes to your friend. 🙂
Wow, you go for it girl! Take up the pen (keyboard) again! Or… even more often, I guess I should say! I am all up for cheerin’ on a writer!
-CK
It seems that we have both come to very similar conclusions and are both at “turning points.” You writing is superb. Give it a go!!!!
Sending all the positive vibes in the world out to your friend xxoo
…and it sounds like you came back from vegas in the nick of time! Do you mean you are kicking the habit?? I love hearing that!! Your lungs will thank you and you insides will be as beautiful as your outside.
So glad to hear that you are inspired to write again Look forward to reading what you write next.
YES! Seize the day! (I can offer more platitudes! :P) But seriously, you’re awesome and you write beautifully and I have no doubt that you’ll kick ass in whatever you set your mind to regarding that. And it doesn’t matter that you don’t know HOW you’re going to do it…you’re going to do, period, and you’ll figure out the how part of it eventually.
I’ve had a similar “revelation” recently about just DOING things as opposed to saying, “Yeah, I’ve always been a singer and a writer, and I’d love to do something with both” … and then not doing anything and inexplicably feeling sorry for myself that “things aren’t happening”. Er, no shit, Sherlock, how COULD they be when I’m not DOING ANYTHING?! Well, no more, I say! 😉
Sending good vibes to your friend and I’m sorry to hear she’s going through such a difficult time!
Get to typing and to writing. Do you…and it will fall in place. Good luck! The time is now.
Oh Charlotte, this post was so heartfelt, raw and transparent! I loved and related to so very much of it!
Of course I’ll send good thoughts to your friend- of course I will!
And last, but so not least, you *are* a writer! And I’m so rpud of you for all that you’re doing and learning and journey through it!
XO, my friend!
I hear you.
I will always be the few, the proud, the bloggers.
I began blogging, after being given the cold shoulder in our small town.
I guess I”m just too different.
All the years, before blogging, that I spent crying, out of loneliness.
All that gone now, with all my virtual but real friends.
I say a prayer of thanks to God every morning, and night, for the internet.
And I’m not exaggerating.