beautiful morning, there’s no place i’d rather be

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It was a perfect day to jump in the car and head to upstate New York to meet up with friends and begin drinking at noon. Bryan and I woke up early, enjoyed some breakfast from our favorite local bagel shop, and made our way to Pearl River for bagpipes, a parade, and Irish dancers and baton twirlers. Somewhere on the outskirts of Hoboken in Bryan’s red Mazda last Sunday with Jimmy Cliff playing on the iPod, Bryan and I ping ponged conversations back and forth like school children still learning about each other. And then he innocently said something that took my breath away.

“I would be foolish not to marry you.”

I didn’t know how to respond. With the wind out of my sails, I turned to look out the window in an effort to compose myself, as a smile slowly made its way across my face. I had so many things I wanted to say in that moment but I couldn’t think of a single thing that wouldn’t make me sound like an idiot. And so I took Bryan’s hand in mine and turned to face him.

“That’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me,” were the words that finally escaped my lips. I didn’t care how they sounded. I was melting. Where were we now? Weehawken? Edgewater? The world was a beautiful blur.

And though I did hear the word “marry” in that sentence, it wasn’t what I was focused on (even though it is big news since I’ve never had a boyfriend actually discuss it earnestly with me before). I was stuck on something bigger than that. I have moved beyond just being present in the moment with Bryan; I am beginning to envision a future with him. And despite the fact that we’ve already discussed the possibility of children, hypothetical wedding songs, and where we’d like to live someday, this was the moment when I realized that Bryan was just as serious about us, too.

Cuz life is just a funny dream… and someday, I’ll share this dream with you. Just to be with you, this much I pray… It’s true.

I would be foolish to take a moment of this for granted. And so I enjoyed the feel of the wind in my hair and Bryan’s fingers folded around mine. I smiled at him, thought about my good fortune, and turned to face the world outside. I briefly remembered the many years I had spent worrying if I would ever find love again.

Wouldn’t you know it, the moment I stopped looking was the moment it had found me instead.

So this is what it’s supposed to feel like.

I would just like to add that the accompanying picture has nothing to do with anything. Bryan and I weren’t driving an old bug, nor were we by a body of water. But he does sort of dress like the guy in the photo and I just think it’s a cute shot :)

25 Comments… add one

Maria March 23, 2012, 10:01 AM

This post is making my eyes tear up because I knew it would happen for you. I remember telling you so over the phone a while back when things looked bleak. Thanks for sharing this moment. It’s a wonderful feeling, isn’t it?

Nikki March 23, 2012, 10:31 AM

Who’s covered in goose bumps? ME!

I LOVE IT!!! XOXOXOX

My Inner Chick March 23, 2012, 11:36 AM

**“I would be foolish not to marry you.” **

Beautiful. I am smiling right now. Xxx Love
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trininista March 23, 2012, 12:26 PM

all I can say is wow. that is so awesome. I am happy and jealous at the same time…more happy. yaaaay you.
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Nicole March 23, 2012, 12:31 PM

omg…how sweet is this? like maria, this makes me tear up too…how awesome! i’m so happy you have found someone who fits you so well and who you have found such happiness with. no one deserves it more than you. bryan, thank you for all that you do for my beautiful charlotte!!! xoxo

Dawnee March 23, 2012, 1:53 PM

Oh my goodness Charlotte! What a guy!!! Isn’t it amazing how one line can just melt us and give us insight into how they truly feel about us. Wow. The first thing that caught my eye though was:
“Bryan and I woke up early, enjoyed some breakfast from our favorite local bagel shop…” I thought, “oh my gosh! It just seems like last week that the two of you found each other, and now, you have a favorite bagel shop!” LOL Funny the things that stick with me. Again…. it is such a joy to be with you on this journey!
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Alison@Mama Wants This March 23, 2012, 7:23 PM

Oh sweet love, my friend, such sweet love. I’m so happy for you, words fail me. Truly. xo
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Date Girl March 23, 2012, 8:59 PM

awwwwwwwww! I love that feeling. I remember feeling that way when Match and I started getting serious. I’m so so happy for you!
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Craftwhack March 24, 2012, 11:01 PM

Oh, that’s just lovely. It makes me all giddy to read that good stuff.
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Alexandra March 25, 2012, 12:37 AM

No.

Absolutely no. No way. NO WAY.

I am giving myself chills.

I knew it> I KNEW IT.

I knew it and I have the back comments here as evidence: I knew that the trip to paris would throw your life into a new path.

I could sense it in the universe.

And, now.now I want nothing more than to fly there to be with you. and have you tell me, face to face, eye to eye, every detail. so that you NEVER forget how it felt.

Never.

I love you.
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Alexandra March 25, 2012, 12:43 AM

OK. We must seal the deal.

A wonderful dinner at home, to show him just what a marvel you are all the way around.

Get some HUGE wonderful Portabella mushrooms, slice them thin, and saute in HOT pan of olive oil mix with soy butter, and chopped garlic and onion. Simmer till mixture translucent brown. When browned, throw in sliced, seeded red and green peppers. Saute until just beginning to cook. Serve on warm, toasted french rolls.

Will seal the deal.

xo
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Jill March 25, 2012, 6:38 PM

Oh my. I think I’m blushing just reading that. So happy for you girlie. Talking about the future is lovely thing indeed.
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Hannah March 26, 2012, 7:52 AM

This is a big-goofy-happy-grin-on-my-face-while-reading post. Very happy that you are so very happy!

Karen Peterson March 26, 2012, 6:50 PM

This made me squeal with happiness for you!
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Kristen March 26, 2012, 7:35 PM

I had goosebumps and I got all giddy as I was reading that!!! How awesome is that and now you have it written down to revisit that magical moment?! That is so very exciting to have something like that in front of you. Hold onto that feeling of the wind blowing in your hair and his fingers curled around yours. It truly is what is should feel like!! <3
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Gia March 27, 2012, 1:06 PM

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

A shiver just ran up my spine as I read this. What a beautiful moment and what an incredible relationship you two are nurturing. BEYOND thrilled for you right now! Beyond, beyond, beyond!! And I think it's less about the idea of marriage and more about the fact that you are settling into something so secure and where you can be your true and honest and wonderful and lovable self. So much happiness right now! :) :) :) :)

and p.s. thank you for stopping by my blog just to say you missed me! really put a smile on my face and is truly so sweet of you! xo
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Krysten March 27, 2012, 1:07 PM

I wish I could say something other than I am SO ridiculously HAPPY for you. So damn happy. I feel like we’re kindred spirits in a way and reading this just filled my heart up for you. AH! Thank you for sharing this with us!

Hutch March 27, 2012, 1:24 PM

I know I’ve said this a millions times over, but I am just so so sooo happy for you my friend! Although from what we’ve discussed/I’ve read so far, I had no doubts you were both in the same place :)
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Blond Duck March 28, 2012, 7:43 AM

(Bouncing up and down!) I’m so happy for you!
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Amber March 28, 2012, 9:56 AM

Oh, lady. I’m so happy for you. Thanks for giving me a smile this morning. It’s awesome when life finally works out the way it’s supposed to, isn’t it?
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(FL) Girl with a New Life March 28, 2012, 11:42 AM

Honey, I am so happy for you! And what a touching post.
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(FL) Girl with a New Life March 28, 2012, 11:48 AM

I love it when things turn out the way I always hoped they would.
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Bonda84 March 29, 2012, 5:26 PM

That’s one of those moments where simple everyday words are strung together and take on a whole new definition for a person…those are those moments that mean the world :)
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keishua March 30, 2012, 3:12 PM

LOVE is a beautiful thing. I can feel you smiling through my screen!!

Pretzel Thief April 16, 2012, 8:31 PM

SQUEEEEEEEE! Heh heh. That’s just beautiful, I’m rapt for you guys!
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